Freshman Year 2020

Its been 16 wks of school and I can tell you there has been nothing normal about school 2020 style. Sapphire started her Freshman year so excited even with the fact she’d have to do it from home…then reality set in. By week 4 she would have a daily cry and a stomp around the house because of her perception of poor communication, lack of understanding  and general frustration with school from home. 

Honestly, out of fear I kept her home.  Back in June I said God what would you have me do? Should I let her back in school with the virus raging. Then a peace came over me and I knew i wouldn’t have to make the choice. And I didn’t…they closed the schools for the first 9wks. God knew my concerns about her going so in true FATHER form he allowed me to take the safe route and learn the lesson. He knew I had to see Sapphire struggle before I would let her go back to school willingly. 

So after 9wks of crying and feelings of loneliness we were able to switch to going on campus twice a week. And then SHE WAS BACK. My happy-go-lucky, social butterfly, fashionista was back. Sapphire went from a depressed and stressed freshman to a fun loving delight in a week. I had not seen the decline into depression on her because I enjoyed staying home and we would still take small trips here and there so I thought it was enough. I didn’t realize how sad she was until she was waking me up in the middle of the night crying that her life sucked. The first night I talked her through it…the 2nd time I called in the calvary….my sister circle, prayer, and the church counselors. They all stepped up and spent time talking with Sapphire but the ultimate change was me getting over my own fears and allowing my social butterfly to bloom. 

Now she’s in school and has funny stories for me every day. We wear a mask and wash our hands and the school does an excellent job of keeping the children safe. Now if we could just keep the boys away…🧐